Initials

Rays of sun in her eyes
Art and beauty all over
Songs and notes in her voice
Heart and feelings so sweet
Ashes of love in her looks
Intentions as white as snow
Snow white is her heart
Imagination so wild
Nothing to be compared to
My eyes are blinded
Your beauty is blinding
Hurry and save me now
Even if im enjoying it
Amazing how u kiss me
Raw pleasure and plain
Tonight U were in My Head

I Started This A While Ago , I Can't Seem To Finish It !

Days as bright as sunshine in the summer
Hours as warm as heat in the cold
Looks like he's falling in love with her
His heart was his , now its sold

Forbidden feelings floating around
Pinned down with clouds of lust
Forever , by love they are bound
But his heart of iron will soon rust

He sees her everywhere he looks
Smells her perfume in the air
Absent pictures in hidden books
Life Is hard , its never fair

Sea Of Love

I see myself on a shiny day
With u all by my side
We're alone , we're so far away
Sittin on a beach , watching the tide

It feels so good , to hug u tight
Feel ur heart , beat so fast
I wanna kiss u , through the night
A kiss that forever will last

Hold me strong , in ur arms
Let's float on our sea
U attract my thoughts by ur charms
U bring out the best of me

In my heart u will always be
A girl who loved me so much
I lived my days with u happily
And everyday i missed ur touch

Our sea of feelings sits unruffled
As our small waves travel through
Kiss by kiss , the waves got shuffled
To prove that our love is true.

With Her

Since she left him , a while ago
He lived in his own little world
Where its dark , and time is slow
No rays of sun , his body is cold
The air is rare , its hard to breath
Or is it just his imagination ?
Her world is shallow , empty underneath
She threw him in heartbreak nation
Where he'll find so many lovers
Dying to get some fresh air
Trying to get out from their covers
Untie themselves from the chair
Maybe he awaits his own destiny
A new heart to cut his chains
Some love , some trust , some honesty
To glue together his remains
There she comes , with a bright smile
Holds his hand , away they fly
They stay together , mile after mile
Always and forever , they will fly high

After Her

The day i always waited for has finally come
Where i throw my memories , leaving some
Pleasurable moments are in my heart
Bitter past of a painful deadly start
Thrown away in my drying river
Once before they made me shiver
But now that the end is here
And to my heart , my love is near
Happy , i stand again on my feet
With the help of someone ur gonna meet
She lightened the dark skies of my fall
As sweet as sugar , u can call her a doll
She pulled me from my once dark grave
And told me:"its u , ur the one to save"
In my arms , forever i held her tight
With a white heart , and a laugh so light
She can make u forget ur worries
With a smile , and cheeks like cherries

Blank Papers

It's not over yet
Words are still flowing
Phrases being made
Papers filled
Books sealed
And it never ends
A pain ment to be
U gave it to me
And never took it back
Unlike ur love
Wich u deprived me of
Left me hopeless
A drop in ur perfect life's sea
Careless about me
About my feelings
I loved u back then
Today i hate u
I hate the fact that i loved u
I hate how i meant nothing to u
How it was easy to let go off me
I hate how i adored u
And u stepped on me and went on
Now that i realised it
I hate how i still love u
And it goes on ...

Blank Words

I donno what im writing
Words are just comin out
Phrases from my heart biting
Whats left of my life to shout
After u , it all changed
I couldnt sleep
I couldnt eat
I couldnt breathe
I miss that smell of urs
I had it on my shirt
I still do
My only memory of u
I thought u loved me
I thought u were happy
Was i fooled?
Was i used?
All i know is ure gone
Ur happy , ur alive
U left me in an empty grave
Just before u took my life away
U took urself away
U were my life , i died
Now , in my grave i cry
My long lost love
Muddy tears fill my sadness
Agony calling ur name
Memories remind me of u
In my arms , near my heart
My heart that stopped beating
Blood quit flowing anymore
No cause for it to do
From my grave , my deep black whole
I suffer u for the last time
I wish u infinite happiness
As long as u shall live
As long as im dead
I still love u ...

All About U

I can feel u in my arms
Now that i'm missin u more
It's true , they said love harms
It held me and threw me on the floor

U're so far , somehow very near
I can feel your symphonic heartbeat
I'm holding u , battling my fear
I'm like the sun , without it's heat

They said love is blind , love is cruel
Since i saw u , i see noone else
I thought falling in love , is becoming a fool
But a fool would be doing something else

My heart is weak , ur memory is strong
I can't get u out of my head
I hope the night won't be so long
I hope our memory will never be dead

Falling For U

I'm falling for u , yes i am
For ur beautiful shiny eyes
I'm falling for u , yes i am
For the memories , after goodbyes

I'm falling for u , yes i am
For the laughter , that blinds time
I'm falling for u , yes i am
For the feeling of ur lips on mine

I'm falling for u , yes i am
For the touch that cures my ache
I'm falling for u , yes i am
For the care that from u i take

I fell for u , yes i did
For having u in my arms
I fell for u , yes i did
For ur words , for ur charms

I'll fall for u , yes i will
For always being there for me
i'll fall for u , yes i will
Coz if i fall , i know u'll catch me

The Rain

The rain tapping outside my window
While ur running inside my mind
U stole my thoughts ,made me hollow
And ur love ,has made me blind

The rain tapping outside my window
Spying on my little tear drops
Memories of u ,make my head mellow
And the pain inside ,never stops

U left me on a windy ,rainy day
Saying u dont love me anymore
U were the predator ,i was the pray
But ur the kinda person ,id die for

Without u , everything feels the same
The seasons arent even changing
But for this fault ,I leave myself to blame
Cause ,on u ,in a moment i was hanging

Now im paying the price of my trust
The love i gave u with arms wide open
My heart is like metal covered with rust
And the rest of my life ,ill spend it hoping

Rana { R.I.P }

Suddenly, there she went
With a blow of a wind
An angel from heaven sent
That haven't yet sinned

He placed her there
With his own hands
Caressing her hair
He covered the sands

He grew a black plant
With his river of tears
He wanted to hold her hand
To scare away her fears

Now his fears are gone
And life means nothing
He stood there like a stone
A sad statue , crying

Now hes standing up
Staring down at her
Praying for his god
To have mercy on her

The Thing

The grave was empty
The sky was bright
Yesterday ? There's plenty
Just win the fight

I didn't have a chance ,he said
A miracle might have happened
By now , I should be dead
My heart , for a life , has achened

Though paradise was my destiny
Life was all that i wanted
I want to face all my agony
And the "Thing" that almost got me dead

It took my mom , it took my dad
It made me face a nightmare
Without them all my days were bad
But i know, from up above, down on me they stare

Mom i love u , dad U know that too
I miss ur smell on my pillow at night
To kiss u, that's all i wanted to do
I must ,but I know there's no chance that i might

I don't care about life anymore
I don't even care about the pain
I don't have anything to live for
All the people around me are the same

Now i wish that this "Thing" would get me
So i can go "rest in peace"
At least my parents will ge to see me
And forever , We shall live in peace

Away from "Them" ,away from "It"
A happy family we'll try to be
In the heaven's heart we shall sit
And look at hell where "They" will be.

Guardian Angel

If life ever ends
I won't be here
I never was here
I never existed
I never will
But, i was always always by ur side
U couldn't see me
No one could
U tried to touch me
I felt u , did u ?
Guardian angel i was called
I knew everything about u
I was u
I slept near u
I walked with u in the dark
I held ur hand
I was there
In the warm breeze
That carressed ur floating hair.
I always dreamt
I always wished
To have another chance
If i ever did
I wouldn't have jumped
I wouldn't have cried
I wouldn't have screamed,
I would have lived
And thanked god
For having u in my arms
For having u in my life
For meeting u
For being born
For being given the chance
To live a life
As wonderful as
A life with u in it
A life that never knows
What sadness feels like,
And knows what true happiness is.
Though im still living
In dreams, in illusions
I'll always be holding ur hand
I'll always walk u in the dark
And, i'll always caress ur hair
with the soft warm breeze,
Until we meet again,
I love u,
I'll always do.

The Fear

Have U ever had that fear
That U cant fight
The kind of fear
That haunts u at night

U look up to God
And say: "Not now..
I really need my dad..
And my mom somehow"

I never mean it when I say
I wish you would die
Now before I sleep I pray
Hoping that one day I wont cry

You never know their value
Until you lose them
Jesus I'm praying for you
AMEN..

Black Dot On My Broken Heart

Leave me ,let go of my hand
Free me ,my heart is bleeding
Havent u had enough fun?
Do u think i can still take it?

U became my worst enemy
But my dearest friend ,no!
Lover, u left me confused
Looking for a needle in a stack of hay

For now i've been walking
On the same old road that we were talking
Sometimes, too much is never enough
And sometimes we just gotta put an end to our love

But does it have to hurt that much,
It only aches when i feel u nearby
When i see ur shadow passing by
Or ur words blowin in the wind

In pieces, My heart cant beat again
Ur the only cure for this disease
It seems ill never live again
After u the time will freeze

The Crossing

Barely Conscious ,almost asleep
Thoughts weepin ,tears creepin
Blood rushing through uncut veins
Strugglin to leave this dead corpse of mine
Eager to taste the life of pain,
The grave is waiting to be haunted
The soul looking me in the eyes
I try to scream for help , for life
Call the names of those who already left me
Hope deserted me ,the promise is broken.
My hand will never be warm again,
Ull never listen to my heart beatin
I always heard noises in my twisted head
Saying that this might be the dead end,
Dead is me ,layin down in my coffin of life
Its the end for us ,destiny has played its role
I'll be watching u ,ill always be around
I'll pass my fingers through your hair
U can't feel me, U wont feel me
Though ill be loving u more than i ever did
All i'm taking with me ,is ur whispers
A memory of us ,i shall not forget
And if i ever do ,will u whisper me again?

Illusions

Im still livin a dream
Im still unconscious
Im still blinded
Im still shattered

livin a dream of my future
Im unconscious without u
Blinded by ur love
Shattered by ur words

Im still suffering
Im still trapped
Im still aching
Im still stabbed

Suffering the days i showed love
Trapped in my cage of loneliness
Aching my past away
Stabbed with ur knife of loyalty

Im still trying
Im still hanging on
Im still flying
Im still carrying on

Trying to get out of the blue
Hangin on the the edge
Flying in my reality dreams
Carrying on in my sleep

Ill always Dream
Ill always be in pain
Ill always be lost
ll always miss my train
Miss my train to the land of reality

My Rainbow Of Nothing

Blue I Sit Down On My Chair
Thinkin about the days we had
Red were ur cheeks the other day
The day u hugged me for life

Black are my thoughts now
My thoughts Written down with my tears
Yellow was ur dress the last day
The day i lost my life

White is the paper soaked with tears
Tears i should'nt be cryin
Violet was the flower i gave u
The Flower i gave u for lying more

Colors speak for me
When my words cant express
White shall ur life be
Like the heart that always loved u

Story

There was i
Happy and strong
Livin my life
Knowing am not alone
And then out of nowhere
U show up in an instant
The instant that brought it all back
Brought back all the memories
Memories of u and me
Memories of us.
I had my best days with u
U gave me up
It was so easy for u
It was death 2 me.
Why did i see u
Why did i remember u
I still love u
U dont even care
About me about my feelings
Life isn't fair
When ure far away.
I know its jealousy i feel
Knowing that ure someone elses
I cant stand it.
Yesterday i cried
Donno if its u
But its u that made me
I was crying u out
Crying out my sadness
Crying out the days i missed u
Crying everything out.
And now whenever i remember u
Its just tears in my eyes
I feel like being alone
Being with u makes me ME
I know ill never be me
Like i know ull never b mine
I hope we'll be us someday
I hope so

The Move

It was an ordinary sunday
The day i met u
I never thought there will come a day
Ill be so attached to u

A friend i thought u would be
U showed me more than that
U shared ur secrets with me
"Best Friend" Ill always call u that

2 years have passed
730 Days of joy and happiness
17520 hours that we shared
63072000 seconds we'll always reminess

But the day we always feared has come
It is time for us to leave
We r moving out of this home
The thing ill never beleive.

A part of me is staying here
Right where u are
Its that the thing i fear
Ill never know who u are ....

Love Hurts

My Tears are dried out
My heart is aching
U left me behind
Ur hands were shaking

I was afraid this day would come
The day u leave me
And now that it is done
I think i lost my sanity

U always showed me love
U always cared
Now that u left
I think u were scared

Scared that i would leave u
Scared that i wont be urs
It seems i shouldnt have believed u
When u said i wont be hurt

Go on now ur free
Ur guilty , ur a criminal
U stole my heart like a bee
That stands on a flower

U had the chance to be mine
I lost the chance to be urs
Now that ur gone for no time
I found out Love Hurts

Never Let Go

I saw u yesterday
U were in my dreams
My happy joyful dreams
Happy cause of u
Joyful cause ur with me


Didnt want to wake up so fast
I wanted to live like that 4ever
U , Me , Us , our Life
Our life that u made better
By holding too tight
And never let go


Stay with me , never leave
Coz when im with u
I cant beleive
That someday , somehow
Our life is goin to end
In a minute, in an instant


I just see us together
Sitting on a big white cloud
Looking at our children from up above
Living the best moments we lived
The best moments i lived
When u came into my life


So pls hold on tight
Stay by my side
Catch my hand and live in my dreams
So that even if ur gone
Ull always be with me
And ill always be with you

Life

Anger , Sadness And Loneliness
Feelings too hard to fight
Thats what im feeling
In my heart tonight


Why is it that we live ?
Why is it that we breath ?
Is it just to feel bad
Or there's a hidden side underneath


Have u ever been there?
The side where u feel like dyin
Everyday is just another war
And u spend it all cryin


Ive Been There all my life
Strugglin , fightin ,slowly dyin
Today i feel the end is near
Maybe i should stop tryin


I can see the bright light
The light at the end of My life
Im running down the tunnel
Can't wait to reach the other side

Questions And Answers

Ive been up all night long
The candle light is my mate
Forever trying to be strong
But no one can handle the fate


Less than a day but i cant wait
To meet the person to whom i belong
I have a feeling , greater than great
I feel like writng u a song


Will she be good , will she be nice ?
My heart cant stop asking me
Will i become hers,will she become mine?
Is she the one to be?


All these questions running through my mind
My pencil's answering none
Will she walk and leave me behind?
Or will we become one ?


The night shall pass
The candle shall melt
One day well have our mass
And feel like we've never felt


So pls dont hurt me
Dont break my heart in two
Ur the one i want to see
Hope u want to see me too


Minutes passing like hours
Hours passing like years
Will she adore the flowers?
Will she burst in tears ?


The questions r still coming back
Haunting me in my sleep
Tomorrow they'll be answered back
And for me , its u ill always Keep

Why ?

For all those years we've been together
i've known u more than myself
i thought we'll stay forever
but my pic fell of ur shelf
Why ?


We shared beds , we shared nights
we shared moms , we shared lives
and now u come and say "go"
i loved u so much, i couldnt say no
but all i could say then was
Why ?


IS it love ? is it Care?
IS it a dream? or a nightmare?
i lost a part of me with u
believe me thats the truth
but all i wanna know is
Why?


I called u Sister backthen
the days we used to be friends
but now my hear is aching
from all the pieces breaking
could u simply tell me
Why?


u closed the door behind u
u killed our friendship
i know i still feel for u
feelings sinking with our ship
Why did u do that?
Why?


ill hate myself if ill hate u
ill die if i dont cry
i wanna put my arms around u
and together we shall fly
ill whisper in ur ear
Why?

Why did u leave me ?
why did u hate me ?
why did u fool me?
why did u blind me?
Why? Why?

Heart Broken

Heart broken , i stood there
waiting at ur door
should i leave?
Should i stay?
Should i Believe?
Should I Pray?
Heart Broken , i asked u one last time
do i have a place in ur heart



the answer i didnt wanna hear
came out from lips i always will desire
Heart broken , i turned around
knowing ur not mine anymore
heart broken , i walked right out
waiting for my name to be called



Heart broken , thats how i feel
in my little dark corner
the corner where we spent our days
our days that will never end
heart broken , i think of u
i think of me , i think of us
i think of my past thats forever gone


heart broken , thats how i feel
in my little dark corner
"will i ever c u again ?" I wondered
"Will i ever touch u again ?" I cried
"Will i ever whisper in ur lips ?" I asked
so many questions i have to ask
but ur my only answer.


R those ur footsteps i hear
on my front porch
heart broken , i stood up
walked towards the door
just to know that ill always be heart broken
until i die ... until i meet u

The Wound

This wound will never heal
Without u by my side
These dark clouds surrounding me
Make my happy thoughts collide

The bleeding is so strong
Its making me feel bad
Im bleeding my happiness away
Infected by sadness,making me mad

Ths Agony i feel deep down inside
Its ruining my life
My memories,my joy,my extasy
Its in my heart,stabbed with a knife

Oh wont u help me please
Get over this loneliness
Help me kill this disease
And get me back my happiness.

Where R U ?

Though ur not here with me
I always think of u
The person that makes me happy
Hope my dream will come true
Where R U ?

For once let me see u
For once let me touch u
For once , oh wont u let me
Oh wont u let me find u
Where R U ?

In My dreams u still linger
Ur abscence is my fear
Ur love is becoming my nightmare
But ur presence lurks in my tears
In my tears that shout
Where R U ?

For once Say My name
For once hold me tight
For once , oh wont u tell me
Oh wont u tell me
Where R U ?